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THE REAL REVOLUTION: CONQUER, TRANSFORM, CLAIM FOR CHRIST a week-long blog
this is gonna be loooonnngggg. i got 10,000 thoughts in my head about my leadership-discipleship camp in lemery batangas by Inter Varsity Christian Fellowship last week.
to be honest, i wasn't that excited to attend the LCDC camp. I wasn't that prepared... not just my baggage, but also my heart. But i made I promise to God that I will dedicate that whole week to Him... that i would sacrifice everything just to attend that camp... even my work in the office. I even wrote to my camp manual "FOCUS ON JESUS". i want to be there not because i want to meet new friends, not because i want to meet a prospective God's will, not because i want to gain experience.. but to worship God, to know more about Him and to discover His plan for my life.
It was the best camp i ever attended. i was part of the best Small Group and recreation team, i got the best cabinmates, i met a lot of great friends. it was a total blast! The progression of topics for sessions are well arranged, the flow was continuous.
sessions the session on personhood was really striking. a lot of my questions before i went to camp were answered there. i gave up to God my personal confusions... and now i can say that IM FREE!
i also like the BSW (bible study workshop) it was the first time that i learned how to conduct and lead a BS. I know that someday... I'll lead my own BS and I'll be using this knowledge a lot =)
special events it feels great for a woman like me to be treated with high respect. the banquet night was a great experience. the guys had "harana" for the girls. it was sooo sweet!
the missions night was a night of great realization. I experienced how to be treated poor and rejected for an hour, and another 30 minutes as a lame. my groupmates who's either blind, deaf or mute has to carry me in an obstacle course in the dark session hall. i was crying when i lighted the candle and made a commitment to God that i will dedicate my last few months in college to Him... and to bring the good news to my campus thru IVCF.
my favorite game we all played in the beach... throwing a cup or pale-full of water and sand to the other team. we we're running and attacking the other team and at the same time, we were protecting our own base. I really enjoyed it! because after the fight, we just played like kids in the beach =)
small group i should say that i got the best SG! i love my SGmates =) we had a great bonding! it's nice to freely share personal struggles, experience and thoughts to them; we prayed and encourage one another; and we helped each other in washing the dishes! =)
victorious secret you might ask why victorious secret? hehe! that's what we call ourselves (cabin 3 people). Victorious secret because we all claim that we're victorious in Jesus Christ and at the same time, we share a lot of secrets!!! hehe! (cabin secrecy) =) i got the best cabinmates! we were really close! and i believe that our cabin is the best! its really hard to explain why, but i know my cabinmates understand much what im talking about here! hehe! =)
praise and prayer its nice to worship God and pray to Him together in the morning. To just freely sing praises to Him with the cool breeze of the see and the bright sunshine in the morning =)
quiet time start the day right. It feels great to talk to God first thing in the morning, before doing and thinking of anything else. =) to be honest, my quiet time at home is not consistent... and it feels great to be discipled there in camp =)
i learned so much from that camp. He fixed and healed my heart, He answered the confusions and troubles in mind. after that, He gave me a burden to share His word... to be not contented with having salvation by myself. I got friends who still doesn't know Him that someday, i would want to see up there in heaven with me. i realized that i got a big responsibility.
GOD LOVES ME SOOOO MUCH... HE HAS BLESSED ME WITH GREAT THINGS... AND I WANT OTHER PEOPLE TO KNOW HOW BLESSED I AM THOUGH IM SO UNWORTHY... I WANT THEM TO SEE CHRIST IN ME... AND I REALLY WANT THEM TO EXPERIENCE THE SAME LOVE THAT I FEEL... THE LOVE THAT CHRIST OFFERS... THE LOVE THAT CANNOT BE COMPARED TO ANYTHING ELSE IN THIS WORLD...
Lord, thank you for bringing me to LCDC. thank you for my new friend, thank you for the lives of those people who became a blessing to me. thank you for the counselors, thank you for making me realize once again how blessed i am, thank you for those people who became sisters and brothers to me that i know i can run to anytime. thank you for making me realize that im never alone, thank you for making me feel that i made the right decision of obeying your command, thank you for the new lessons that i learned, thank you for the enjoyment and the fun, thank you for the financial provisions, thank you for using me to be a blessing to other people, thank you for the support of my family, thank you for your countless blessings, thank you for the leadership skills that you gave me, thank you for the talents that you blessed me with, thank you for this experience in camp, thank you for giving me the burden to share your word, thank you for the vision that you imparted to me.
i know that you love me and you love my friends too. i pray that you'll reveal yourself to them. I pray that they would see the light in me and they'll notice the difference. I pray that they would accept you as there personal Lord and savior. i dont wanna be selfish anymore. use me father to touch other peoples lives. i love you so much Lord. in Christ name, amen
i'll be gone for a week. i'll be attending a leadership-discipleship camp in lemery batangas... and i really dont know how to live in that 1 week without computer and internet!!! i'll be sick! whaaa!!!!
no emails, no friendster, no pinoysaints, no lotus notes, no blogs, no mp3's, no webby's, no pc games. whhaaaa!!! what should i do?!?
i was terribly feeling bad the other day. i was so confused and feeling down... well, it's only me and the Lord who knows the struggles that im going through right now... i was crying out so much to Him... i was so much hurting...
i am so thankful becoz God blessed me that time through kuya joseph! *hugs to kuya joseph* hehe! i was so sad before we chatted the other day... and i ended up laughing, after almost 4 hours of chatting! i thinks it was until 4:30am! =)
i kinda feel better now than yesterday... thanks to kuya joseph! =)
I cant stop my tears from falling...
Im crying because Im tired...
Im tired of working here in the office
I dont wanna work anymore
I feel bad about my work
I feel bad about some of my officemates
I hate what I feel right now
I should not be doing this anyway
Im just supposed to help
IM NOT SUPPOSED TO DO EVERYTHING
they're not accepting my "NO"
they're thinking that im just joking
I'll feel guilty if they failed the APAR review
I dont know what to do.
im facing the computer for the last 18 hours... i just had few breaks... to go to the bathroom, eat lunch and snacks, and commute home from the office. I'll just take a bath in a lil while to prepare myself to go to the office again... which means, I'll be facing the computer for the next 12 hours again! haha! I guess, that's what it takes to be an IT professional! =) It feels like I'm preparing for a thesis deadline right now. The auditor from singapore will be in the office by 9am... so i have to be there before 8am. (time check: 4:47am) By the way, I still got no sleep. And I brought my laptop from the office here at home... so I'm here, still working... tired but not sleepy... bwahaha! im a zombie! bwahaaha!!!! =)
well, my only advantage here is that... i got a free internet connection. =) i got a RAS ID care of IBM and of my supervisors ofcourse =) My supervisors and I were chatting just a while ago at our respective houses... talking about work =) whoo!!! im starting to have an allergy with the word "work" grrr...
This week is really a hell week for us! i usually go home at around 12midnight to 1am everyday... and i even had to work today (sunday). I still cant believe that I missed 1 sunday service! It really feels uncomfortable to go to the office on a sunday morning. But my work badly needs me today... i still don't know if i made the right decision of not attending church...
:: its 12 midnight and im still in the office.... OT again! we only got 3 days to prepare for our audit. Our department will be reviewed by IBM Asean next week... and we got countless of documents and processes to polish! we're terribly busy and rushing everything out! whhooo!!!! im soooo tired!
:: i ate at "something fishy" during lunch with my collegemates and Dencios for dinner with my officemates here in eastwood! =)
:: the mass wedding last night sponsored by our chuch was really great! There were 21 couples who said "I DO" with dozens of candles in the isle, violin, keyboards and flute, professional choir, beautiful flowers, colorful and creative decorations... and my most favorite... THE BUTTERFLY RELEASE!!! =) i think that's around a hundred of butterflies flying around the place after the pastor pronounced them men and wives.. =) it was really nice and sweet! i hope to have a butterfly release too when i get married! hehe! =)
:: i sang well last night... i wasn't that satisfied actually because i only practiced once... an unserious practice! =p
:: after my song, one of my churchmates approached me, he asked me if he could invite me next week to their company's program in Pan Pacific Hotel coz they're gonna launch a new product... and guess what? He's asking for my talent fee! He's gonna pay me for singing in that activity! hehe! it was the first time that im gonna be paid for singing in a crowd... not to mention my "Pambatang Papuri" days... ofcourse i was paid to sing for that album... but that's a different story =) my jaw dropped as he explains the package to me... IM SO BLESSED!
:: Brokensaint: if your reading this right now, hope to talk to you soon about your offer =) maybe a phone call or text msgs? hope to hear from yah soon... aside from your daily messages in pinoy saints =)
:: our org in school "east asia computer society" in which im an exec, will be organizing seminars this coming saturday. The topics will be "Microsoft Windows 2003 server", "Landscape of the IT Industry" and " .net Framework" =)
:: my sched is so hectic!!
:: sorry Lord... i haven't had my quiet time for the past couple of days... sorry =(
:: i dunno what to sing next week... i still got to find songs for my singing commitments...
:: it's already morning... and im still at work... and i got to come here later in the office early in the morning.... i'll just go home to sleep for a little while... then... work again! whooo!!!!
God is trully blessing me and answering my prayers one by one... He gives so much to me... more than what I need... more than what is enough... IM SO BLESSED!
Let me name some blessings that I received from the past couple of days:
* im now using 2 computers in IBM (starting yesterday)... a desktop and... a LAPTOP! =) yey!
* i moved to another table last week... im now outside the cubicle because i had to give way to another supervisor to arrive... because of this, i can now talk and get to know more people in our department... =)
* i forgot to share this story, about the street kid that i saved in cubao last month... well, i'll just make another entry for this. But just so you know, the 5-year-old shelter kid "christian" from our church (we have a shelter kid program at church, by the way) was found! We lost him for a month... and now, we found him! im really happy about this... I'll surely share my street kid story soon.
* i got a new mobile phone! i was using this old phone for several months... and now, i got a new one! paid from my own pocket! whooo!
* i'll be staying here at IBM until january. I'm suppose to stay here until November 18 only, coz I'm done with my 1040-hour intership requirement by then and IBM is not allowing student trainees to work here beyond 6 months (November 18 is exactly my 6th month). But my supervisors requested me to stay. They justified me to the HR department and they'll be coordinating to my college to extend me until January. Im so glad coz they wanted me to stay.... =)
* I have a dream of singing in a gig... or in a cafe setting with an accoustic sound. A couple of weeks ago, I was requested by my aunt to sing in my cousins wedding, about 8-10 songs =) my other cousin, who's a great keyboardist, will be playing for me! =)
* I was again asked to sing for 3 occasions this month. 1 song for the mass wedding, which is sponsored by our church at UP bahay ng alumni tom; 1 song for my brothers 10th year anniversary wedding at the coconut palace on oct 16; and 1 song for our church prayer night on oct 31. I feel so blessed for the voice God has given me... i know im not good enough... but still, He opens so much opportunity like these for me =)
*A lot of my theater friends were encouraging me to audition for "footloose" to be performed by Blue Rep at RCBC plaza next year. I feel so flattered with their trust on my capabilities and talents. It was really nice to here them push me to perform... =p
* Im so much enjoying the company and the friendship here in our department... im close with the bosses, employees, and other trainees... =)
* im blessed because i got so many things to write here... and i can still think of other things to share... but i got no more time.
it kinda feels lonely to eat lunch alone in my desk in front of this freakingly moody computer. This is the first time that it's gonna happen to me here. My lunch buddies (my supervisors) are out for a meeting and for a project. I can't even join my other officemates to have a lunch out, since i already bought a Php30 worth of lunch meal at our pantry this morning. And what makes me feel more sad is that, im alone in our department right now. Everybody's out... enjoying their lunch with somebody! grrr... i hate to be alone! it kills me to realize that I'm all by myself. grrr...
the girl.
