jenny. nyeneks. jen. twenty-one.
currently a bum, but not for long. youngest of five. singer. loves to eat. sentimental. luvs music. butterflies. christian.
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what about?
this
site is where she rants and blogs about her oh-so-colorful
life, sprinkled with the simple joys God has blessed her with.
its so amazing to see how God is working! for several years now, i've been praying for my non-christian friends to come to know God. and eventually, after years of praying... one of my classmates accepted God as his personal Lord and savior! yey! im soooo happy!!!
somehow, i've been open to him about my faith, my ministy and my churchlife... but i didn't had a chance to share to him about salvation. but a couple of days ago, i had a chance to invite him to our BS at school, and to our church service this morning.
when he told me that he prayed, and accepted God as his personal Lord and savior, i just cried... cried because i feel so glad! maybe he didn't realized how happy I am... but God knows how much it means to me.
i thank God for using me. =)
and now my friend, is my brother in Christ as well =)
i haven't blogged for quite a while... and i miss blogging! im back! yey! =) im currently enjoying being a BUM! with my bum sisters.. riz and normi! haha! we just eat, talk and sleep the whole day! haha! so pathetic! aryt, i'll just share what I did the past days aside from eating, talking and sleeping. =)
IV day nov22 sportsfest as part of the golden anniv of IVCF, we had a sportsfest at don antonion, qc. =) yeah, i did not play! i just watched them do all the work... and cheer! =)
gala night i was invited to attend the gala night of IVCF at Sulu Hotel. We were all in our formal attire... with the make-up, girly look and all! haha! i was really conscious with my dress! haha! but it was really fun, meeting all sorts of people who became a part of IVCF.
my phone oh well, my phone is just 2 months old, and it was broken just like that! grrr! i just placed it in the table... the next thing i know is that, it wasn't working anymore! believe me, i haven't dropped it! i brought it to megamall and i got to leave it there for 3-5 days. good thing, my phone is now fixed! yey!
IV student center anniv we had a general cleaning at the student center last tuesday. funny because i still haven't cleaned my room, then i was there to clean the student center. haha! but it was fun, really! =)
the next day, after the clean up day, is the anniv celebration of the student center. i enjoyed our fellowship there, though we're only few. =)
IV chapter president at the gala night, i was introduced by kuya teddy (our college's staffworker) to other people that i'm our appointed IV chapter president! whoo!! i'm still thinking hard about this! hearing the word "president" freaks me out!
aryt, guess that's all for now. i thank God cause im starting to enjoy being a bum! haha! but i must admit, that most of the time, i feel tired of sleeping and eating! hehe!
i wrote a letter to my bosses and officemates... just wanna share it here. ='(
hi all!
With just a snap of a finger, my 1040-hour internship requirement has come to an end. I never thought that it would be this fast. I’m so surprised to realize that I only got few more hours to count before I leave IBM.
Allow me to rant my sentiments for the last time… to speak what I have to speak, and to reminisce on some memories that I recall.
I can’t imagine an internship experience better than mine. I know that a lot of trainees envy me for countless of reasons. Guess, I need not enumerate them all… my space wont be enough for this. But just so you know, I feel so much blessed because of you. I realized my worth, my capabilities, and my importance thru you. And for that, I would to express my deepest gratitude.
Mama Helen: thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I wont be this close sa mga tao sa SO if not for you. Thank you for your trust, generosity and appreciation. Thank you kasi thru you, ang dami kong natutunan at na-realize. Ngayon ko lang na-feel na sobrang appreciated… and because of that, natutunan ko din na i-appreciate yung capabilities ko. Bilib ako sayo on how you manage things… very calmed and controlled. Thank you for all the special treatments. Thank you for assigning me to my work now… if not for you… I wont be this devoted to SO. Thank you sa mga treat mo, sa patience pag medyo tamad ako, sa pakikinig sa mga kwento ko, sa pagshe-share mo ng kung anong meron ka, sa mga rewards ko pag “good girl” ako, sa mga privileges na ino-ooffer mo, sa mga lunch outs, sa page-entertain ng madami kong tanong, etc etc. Di ko kayang bilangin isa-isa… masyado na kasing madami. Thank you soooo much sa lahat! Mami-miss kita!
Tatay Egay: Tay!!! Grabe! Sobrang mami-miss kita! Thank you for making me laugh always! (Kahit pinapasakit mo tyan ko kakatawa.) Salamat sa pakikinig sa mga non-sense stories ko at sa pagku-kwento ng mga non-sense stories mo!hehe! Thank you sa madaming “pick one” at sundae from Mcdo. Happy ako kasi sa lahat ng trainee, ako lang ang may tatay! ingit sila! =) Malungkot mag-lunch kung wala ka. =( wala na kong tatay egay pag alis ko dito =’( lungkot nun diba?
Simon: Kung hindi dahil sayo, wala ako dito. Salamat sa pagpasa mo sakin sa interview and for recommending me sa work ko ngayon =). Kaw ung una kong naka-close dito sa ibm, and thank you for making it easy for me to get along and be comfortable with people. Di ko magiging ganito ka-close sila mama Helen if not for you. Thank you sa mga kwentuhan at tawanan natin. Sayang lang kasi di na tayo nagku-kwentuhan ngayon masyado, unlike before… wala ka na kasi sa SO eh. Pero still, malaki pa din ang utang na loob ko sayo. Thank you so much! =)
CJ: Thanks for all the help and encouragement. I still remember yung time na naiyak ako sa work. *shhh* (quiet ka lang) kaw yung unang tao na lumapit sakin kahit na dine-deny ko na umiiyak ako! Haha! na later on… nalaman din ni simon… and you offered me a coffee and talk sa pantry. Thank you kasi I really feel comfortable with you. Thank you sa lahat ng tulong mo sakin! I really appreciate it! =)
Mam Grace: I really enjoyed working with you. Thank you kasi I never felt na “trainee lang ako” with you. Salamat sa mga kwentuhan sa datacenter habang sobrang giniginaw na tayo. Thank you sa mga suggestions mo sa work ko for me to improve. Bilib nga ako sa sipag mo… konting request ko lang… ready na! galing diba? Thank you din sa brownies mo… na di ko na-share sa iba… sarap kasi eh! Hehe! Thanks sa lahat mam grace! I really appreciate you!
Mama Cel: Mama!!! sobrang mami-miss kita! Kahit walang 6 months kitang nakasama… feeling ko ang tagal na kitang kilala. Thank you sa lahat lahat. Thank you sa trust, sa encouragement, sa appreciation, etc. Feeling ko ang dami kong pwede at kayang gawin pag kasama kita. Thank you sa mga libre, sa mga kwento, sa pagsabay sakin hangang edsa pauwi, at sa mga trabahong binibigay mo. Thank you for the challenging tasks na binibigay mo sakin… thank you sa trust sa capabilities ko. Thank you sa thinkpad na nagagamit ko. Thank you for asking my opinion sa ibang critical issues sa SO…for making me feel na may value yung words and opinions ko. I feel so glad kasi I’m so comfortable with you… kasi nakilala kita for who you are… habang ang ibang trainee eh kinakabahan sayo. Di ko nga sila maintindihan minsan eh, for not speaking up to you… eh feeling ko naman, ang daling magsabi sayo. =) thank you, thank you sa lahat!
The reality that now’s my last day, bit by bit sinks in. I really feel so sad for letting go of my second home. It puts me into tears as it comes into my senses. But what can I do, some things are meant to be accepted for what they were. I know very well that ma’m cel and ma’m helen did their best… just to let me stay for a little longer. But I think that God has a better plan for me and for you as well. Indeed, all things work together for good.
Thanks for all the patience, understanding, trust, respect, encouragement, friendship, appreciation, etc. etc. Thanks for the privileges and benefits that you offer, that no other trainee have experienced. Thanks for being my friends and second family as well.
My words are not enough to express my deep appreciation and gratitude. I feel so much loved, blessed and cared by God because of the experience that I gained here. IM SO BLESSED! I never stop thanking and praising God for you. You made my life a whole lot better. I can say that I got the best 6-month internship experience among all!
I will always look back on this internship experience that I have, all my life. And I’ll always feel thankful and blessed for this.
Im gonna miss you all sooo bad! I really hate goodbyes. =’( so, I’ll just look forward to that day that I’m gonna be with you again.
Thank you so much! I’m gonna miss you!
I’ll be praying for you a lot =)
*sorry for being so sentimental*
i started to pack up my things, to prepare the documents that i have to pass to the new trainee, and to bring home my personal stuffs. it's really sad. ='(
i scanned all of my 10 thick binders, a couple of document-full folders and scratch papers, which i read, studied or written for the past six months. I can't believe that I've done all those... and i cant imagine myself doing it again! whoo!! the memories are all coming back one by one.
i just smiled as I look at each paper... paper that brings to a memory. after going through my drawer and folders... after locking it with my key, like what i usually do... sadness hits me again... and it kills me. =(
it kills me to realize that i have to give up my weekday life just like that. I HATE GOODBYES!!! but what can i do... i have to let go of ibm.
all the while, i thought that my extension here will be just fine. my bosses made their best effort to coordinate with my college and the managers here at ibm... they even wrote them letters that overwhelmed me much... just to extend my contract for another month... just 1 month. but after all their efforts, it seems that it's still not enough.
it was so sudden... ='( they told me last night that they're only giving me 2 more days to stay. im not prepared to leave. i feel like breaking up with a boyfriend! i was crying before i slept last night... crying when i woke up this morning... crying on my way here... and crying while im writing this. i can't help it. this is my second family! this is my comfort zone! i only got until tomorrow to fix everything here =( im sooo sad.
i'll miss them soooo bad. if only i could stay a lil' longer... ='(
just a week ago, i feel so confused on the responsibilities that God is giving me... about ivcf, ibm, school, orgs, ministries, joyclub, etc. now, i thought that everything is doing great with me... im starting to manage them all well with God's help and grace.
guess what? i was given 2 big responsibilities again. (1) One of our college's director talked to me this morning... telling me that she want's me to have the lead role on a play... that will be the major event for our college week on feb next year. she knows much about my theater career and my attitude on work... and she's not giving me an option. grrr.. and what i hate much about this is that, i'll be memorizing a book-long script!! i hate memorizations!! grrr.. i was never given a lead role in the past... though i was given one of the major roles in my latest play... and an under-study for the lead on my other play... but not the lead itself!!! whaaa!!!! (2) for my second new big responsibility... as a member of the graduation committee, we all have to handle a project. and as for me, aside from being the finance committee head, i was given the task to handle an outreach program for the WHOLE batch. i'll be starting from scratch... i'll be planning everything... yeah! EVERYTHING!!! whoo!!! i still have to think about this.
i can't believe that God is giving me all these... i dunno
a couple of minutes ago, i was chatting with my collegemate who is an intern at ibm as well, but she's assigned to the HR department. she told me that the HR Department IS NOT ALLOWING ME TO EXTEND MY INTERNSHIP!!! i can't stop my tears from falling... i cant understand... i thought that they talked about this already... and all they need is a letter from my college.
and another thing... MY PHONE IS BROKEN!!!! whaaaa!!!!!!
i really cant understand what's going on... i cant understand...
Today is exactly my 6th-month here at ibm ph. i can't help but reminisce on what God has done for me here. I can count a million blessings that i received and enjoyed here for the past 6 months. My stay here is a clear evidence of God's love, grace and faithfulness to me. I know that i dont deserve these... i dont deserve all these.
let me recall and count once again, some of God's grace that i enjoy here...
- our department, strategic outsourcing, is like a family to me. i got a "tatay" here.. and 2 moms! hehe! we share personal struggles and experiences here... though they're our "BOSS", i never felt any different from them. btw, my supervisors call me "anak" =)
- my supervisors are very encouraging and appreciative. they always say "thank you", "ang galing galing mo", "you can do it" and other words of gratitude. it makes me wanna work more and excel in what I'm doing.
- they always treat me! =) i got atleast 2 sundae's from mcdo everyweek from them; chocolates once in a while; we ate at dencios, jack's loft, foo yu, pho hoa, something fishy, sari-sari, bargo, via mare, don henricos, jolibee, mcdo, cabalen, elbow room, etc. etc. without me paying any, if not... just a few. hehe!
- my bosses are inviting me to department gimiks. we had videoke trice... once at elbow room and twice at bargo. those were supposed to be gimiks for the employees and bosses... but they've invited me. im so priviledged coz im the only trainee that they've invited to join. =)
- i so much enjoyed my job interview here. i was interviewed for an hour... and i was very confortable with it. i was interviewed by a collegemate who is now an boss here. he even became my friend. =)
- im the only trainee here who has 2 computers (with good specs!). i got a thinkpad (commonly known as a laptop) and a desktop. im the only trainee who has a priviledge of bringing my thinkpad home. =) im sooo blessed! =)
- i got a chance to be seated in the cubicle for almost 4 months. only the bosses are sitting there actually... but im so priviledged to have my space there for a couple of months. =)
- im thankful for God's financial provision while im here. life here is kinda costly... there's no "carinderia" or anything like it. everything is expensive! whoo! but im really thankful coz i can still sustain... somehow. whoo!
- im a person who has difficulty in coming to the office on time. and im so thankful coz im one in a million trainees, whose schedule is flexi! =) yey! i can come to work anytime... and leave anytime as well. ofcourse, i dont wanna abuse this... but im still blessed! =)
- they allowed me to have a one-week-leave. i actually got work when i attended LCDC, but thank God, my bosses allowed me to take a leave. they normally dont allow this, but what can i say? im blessed! =)
- i got to have a new mobile phone from my allowance here! =) another financial provision! =)
- i realized that im blessed with a lot of corporate clothes! hehe! =)
- i thank God for keeping me safe... eventhought a lot of times, i go home very late at night from here. specially, when im passing by cubao alone.
- when i received my supervisor's evaluation for me, i almost cried for joy. her comments on me were extremely positive! and they were even insisting my college to give me an award! i dont deserve this!
- my supervisors said that i gained their full trust already... and that i'm an asset to our company... that im organized and manages all our tasks well. whoo! i cant believe this! and they told all those to my college.
- they wanted me to stay here until march... and to apply here when i graduated. but, i cant grant their request to stay here until march... the most that i can do is to work here until december. i know that God has other plans for me. =) but i still feel greatful for their offer. =)
- my supervisors are giving me simple rewards for my works. like chocolates, free dinner, chips, coffee, or anything! hehe!
- they're always inviting me to eat lunch with them. there were times when i already joined the other trainees for lunch, but they will still call me, ask me to join, and tell the other trainees that they will borrow me for lunch! haha!
- they're looking for me when im not around. they're even calling my cell, and ask where i am! haha! or if im absent the other day, they will tell me that they missed me. =) i feel so special here! =)
- we update each other a lot... not just about our work, but also on personal matters. =)
- they're asking my opinion on some office decisions that they make. i feel so priviledged for this, since they value my words with high regard. =)
- i have the priviledge to look over the resume of OJT applicants here. they're asking me on who should and should not be accepted.
- ofcourse, i got down times too. i cried here twice because of my work load. but then, im thankful for that 1 boss, and 1 employee (who were my friends) who comforted me.
- i learned AIX here =)
- im allowed to enter our datacenter (it's not really allowed for trainees). i have the priviledge to work on our servers... and manipulate those as well =)
- they're giving me a wide variety of tasks to do. from reports, to bulletin board, to graphic presentation, to servers, to installations, to contracts, to project coordination (locally and internationally), to cleaning up databases, to studying the unknown, to attending meetings, to researching, to documentation, etc. etc. im learning so much here.
- im working for the big blue! the mere fact that im here in IBM philippines, is a big blessing already! it's a well known and respected company around the globe! =)
- i met a lot of people... not just those from our department, but other people here as well.
- my supervisors are good-natured people. they are sooo kind and generous! =)
- i enjoy my work here so much!
i can think of a thousand reasons why i should be thankful for where i am now. as I look back on God's faithfulness and grace to me here, i can't stop feeling much loved and blessed! THANK YOU LORD! =)
several months ago, i had my YM status "sometimes, you have to kill the butterflies" for a week. i heard a lot of negative reactions from people... feeling pitty for the butterflies. haha! i feel like a murderer! =p
well, that's how I feel about the butterflies again... *scratch head*
i remember, someone asked me "y kill butterflies?". so i replied a long explanation to him... on my attempt to kill the poor thing. just wanna share it here. =)
nyeneks: butterflies are nice and pretty...
nyeneks: they are attractive and pleasing to the eyes...
nyeneks: to see dozens of butterflies flying around, makes me feel good and satisfied...
nyeneks: but sometimes, it helps to kill the butterflies...
nyeneks: because the more i appreciate and focus on the beauty of the butterflies, the more i forget and overlook the loveliness of other things around it...
nyeneks: i have to see the bigger picture...
nyeneks: have you seen the beauty of the sky or the sweetness of the stars at night?
nyeneks: have you noticed how simple yet charming the flowers are?
nyeneks: have you observed how each green grass work together to form an amazing land?
nyeneks: have you viewed the trees dancing with the wind?
nyeneks: *sigh*
nyeneks: well, i used to appreciate and love them more...
nyeneks: until the beautiful butterflies came to me...
nyeneks: i focused so much on the butterflies...
nyeneks: but it shouldn't be the case..
nyeneks: i got to go back and see how amazing other things could be..
nyeneks: hmm...
nyeneks: *sigh
nyeneks: *sigh again
nyeneks: but then again i think...
nyeneks: maybe, the answer to my chaos is not by killing those tiny pretty things...
nyeneks: they're so harmless and innocent...
nyeneks: =(
nyeneks: ohh... poor little thing...
nyeneks: okei..
nyeneks: i'll just place the butterflies in a cage...
nyeneks: i'll keep them there until i know that im ready and prepared...
nyeneks: they have to stay there until im sure that im wise enough to handle things...
nyeneks: maybe.. God doesn't want me to kill the butterflies...
nyeneks: the butterflies are His blessings...
nyeneks: but i have to be sure that im well prepared before i let them free...
nyeneks: so... i'll patiently wait...
nyeneks: wait for the perfect time...
nyeneks: for God's perfect timing...
nyeneks: someday i know... God will unlock the cage...
nyeneks: it might not be the way i expected it to be...
nyeneks: but im very sure it will be the best timing of all...
nyeneks: well, not just the timing... but everything in it..
nyeneks: =)
nyeneks: ...everything that comes along with it
nyeneks: i'll patiently wait for the day that i'll see the butterflies once again...
nyeneks: hundreds of butterflies with beautiful colors...
nyeneks: moving glitteringly around me..
nyeneks: isn't that sweet?
nyeneks: isn't that nice?
nyeneks: by the time comes that the butterflies are free...
nyeneks: i know that they will be mine forever...
nyeneks: =)
nyeneks: for as long as i live...
nyeneks: =)
nyeneks: well...
nyeneks: sorry for this...
nyeneks: i got to cut the crap!
nyeneks: nevermind what i've just said...
nyeneks: i just wanna share whats in my head...
nyeneks: its all crap...
nyeneks: but then again... I LOVE MY BUTTERFLIES! :)
im kinda struggling again with the butterflies... *sigh* and when i remembered this old pathetic composition of mine, it inspired me once again to wait for God's perfect time. =)
ohh well, i just got back to the office after our 2 1/2-hour lunch break. It's my longest lunch break ever! It's been quite a while, since i last joined my supervisors out. I haven't joined them since after camp. We always go out before... and its really nice to bond with them again. I do miss them much. I missed my "tatay egay", my "mama cel" and my "manay helen"... they're my family here! =)
im so full!!! we ate at cabalen in katips (good thing, we went out of eastwood!) hehe! i ate soooo much! well, it's "eat all you can"... so i ate as much as i could! haha!
i got a scheduled deadline today for the vulnerability fixes of 2 of our AIX servers. (yeah, im talking techy again!) we already raised a change request for this, but its not yet approved. so, i have to wait for the approval first before i implement it. Guess, i cant finish it now =( too bad!
i'll be "under time" today. i'll be going to PNU (phil normal univ) for IVCF's LRT fellowship. I cant wait to see my friends from LCDC again! =) hope that traffic isn't that bad.
btw, i got a new blog site... but i wont annouce where it is. haha! it's a secret! =)
ok. that's it. wonder, what else could happen later. =)
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
May the fire of our devotion light their way
May the footprints that we leave
Lead them to believe
And the lives we live inspire them to obey
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
after my camp with IVCF, this old song by steve green became my inspiration. I find myself in tears whenever i sing it. ohh well, this is the first time that i'm gonna broadcast it here. i just wanna share to you that I have been called to work on, serve and lead our IVCF chapter in my college... east asia.
For the longest time, our college never had a christian org. i know christian students in our school... both active and inactive. yet, we never had a chance to have a bible study, to have fellowships, and to encourage one another to grow in faith. I've realized the importance of having a christian org.
during our missions night at camp, i lighted a candle as I pray and make a promise to God that I will dedicate my remaining days as a college student to really work on our IV chapter. I was crying.
it's not easy... believe me! i cried and asked Him several times "why now?", "why me?". He could have given the responsibility so someone else... He could have done this a long time ago... He's all mighty and all powerful... He could do it without me. I have so much responsibilities at work, at school, at home, with my 2 orgs in school in which im an exec, with my ministries at chuch, our praise and worship team and our youth group in which im an exec too, with my family. whoo! my sched is fully occupied for the whole week. He know that very well. And i cant believe that He's giving me another "BIG" responsibility again. At times I ask, "am I hearing the right message? or im just thinking that You're calling me... but the truth is... You're not".
I appreciate all the encouragements and prayers of people around me... specially from those people from LCDC2K3... the campers... the staff and counsilors... and special thanks to kuya teddy! (our college's staff worker) i wish i could tell them all how thankful i am for their prayers and encouragements... and how blessed i am for having them.
for a short period of time, without much effort from me (God is doing all the works actually... not me) i got 9 new christian contacts from our school! yey! and i heard from my friends that they'll give me more contacts to follow! =) aside from that, i talked to my classmate whose a christian like me, to help me out on this burden and vision that i have. It feels great to hear from her that she's gonna help out me on this... and she seems to be excited too, like me =) Another answered prayer... im working also on the legalization of our IV chapter in school. I coordinated with our Director for Student Relations regarding this matter. The next day, I received a reply from our Student Activities Coordinator... she said that my willingness to be recognized by school interests her. =) and we will soon talk about this. =) yey! isn't it great?
::quotable quotes:: "sabi nga, we have been called for such a time as this... whatever lies ahead will surely be better than our wildest dreams!" - kuya teddy
"being overwhelmed keeps us humble. we are reminded most of all during these times dat the task is too great for us. we need God. Dependence is the key." - kuya teddy
"no one of us can see wat tom will bring.. nor do we have the answer to all our need... but we do have the gift of FAITH.. we can hold on.. pray and trust God" - kuya erwin
"but i do remember one thing, that in all things, we should seek God in our prayers ang QTs especially in times when confusion comes and you're feeling down coz ofcourse, God has the answers to our questions" - kuya erwin
"when God calls you for a taks, u become the best person for it. Never cease in trying, jen. tnx for being an encouragement to me." - marian
"nothing matters more than knowing God's purposes for your life, and nothing can compensate for not knowing them - not success, wealth, fame or pleasure" - julie
"i tell u the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain 'move from here to there' and it will move - matthew 17:20" - kuya nino
"the place where God calls you is the place where ur deep gladness and the worlds deep hunger meet" - tarits
those are some text msgs i received from people... and i can still write more.
I'm soooo amazed on how things are working out. And im so thankful because He chose me... and He chose this time. Indeed, all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose.
All i can say is "God is really at work". and if He's calling me for this... I am willing to follow. =)
i've been praying to be an influential person... and to be a blessing to as many people as possible. I really want to be a channel of blessings. I want to touch several people through my life style, my personal testimony, my availability to listen, to give whatever i can offer, and so on...
the past couple of days, i've been receiving a lot of text msg of prayer requests, i've been chatting with several people asking for advise and prayers, i've been talking to people personally and on phone... sharing their personal concerns.
it's a great opportunity to be trusted by people. it feels great to hear from them, that im the only person to whom they shared their personal struggles and concerns. but still, it's a big responsibility... coz i have to be strong for them, i have to pray for them, i have to listen carefully and to think a couple of times before i speak.
i feel happy when their happy... i feel sad when they're sad... i laugh when they laugh... i cry when they cry.
but i got joy in my heart... to be a blessing to other people. =)
my boss and i were chatting a while ago... im so touched and my heart melted with the words she said. just wanna share it here =) by the way... i call my boss "mama" =) hehe
mama: pssst musta ka na po
mama: may pasok ka bukas di ba?
nyeneks: yup
nyeneks: =)
mama: pag d inag-reply si belle (my college's internship coordinator) today re: your extension nyeneks: mabuti naman ako
mama: follow-up mo na lang tomorrow nyeneks: sure
nyeneks: =)
nyeneks: thanks
nyeneks: =)
mama: grabe... mama: pag nabasa mo e-mail ko sa kanya nyeneks: ano?
mama: ay pag sya pala nabasa nya e-mail ko nyeneks: pabasa mo sakin
nyeneks: haha
mama: iisipin nya - WOW, ang galing naman ni Jenny mama: hahahahahaha
nyeneks: =)
nyeneks: talagang binenta nyo ko
nyeneks: hehe
nyeneks: thanks
mama: sabi ko kasi walanga makakagawa ng ginagawa mo kundi ikaw lang nyeneks: haha
mama: plus critical sa IBM na matapos mo ang ginagawa mo nagyon by Dec 15 nyeneks: haha
nyeneks: galing
nyeneks: thanks
mama: the rest of DEc will be for documetnation and training ur successor mama: hahahaha
mama: sabi ko,kahit itrain mo ang susunod, di makakaya nyeneks: haha
nyeneks: =)
mama: at sabi ko, nalaman mo lang lahat yun thru self-study mama: po di ba? nyeneks: =)
mama: pag di pa naman sya na-impress nyan nyeneks: salamat
mama: hehehehehe
nyeneks: haha
nyeneks: thank you talaga
nyeneks: siguro bibigyan na nila ako ng award nyan
nyeneks: haha
nyeneks: tapos sasabihin ko na dedicated sa inyo ung award
nyeneks: haha
nyeneks: thanks
nyeneks: pramis magsisipag na ko ulit
nyeneks: hehe
mama: hahahahaha
mama: meorn bang award senyo? mama: gusto mo gawa kam ing recommendation mama: hehehehehe
mama: parang Oscars
guess, i cant tell much about what happens to me lately... i have to be silent this time coz some people are reading this. =)
all i can say is that, God truly answer prayers... He works in ways that i can't imagine... and He makes possible what i thought was not.
it amazes me to see and to realize the work of his hands... and as much as i would want to share to you what He's doing to me now... i cant... for some reason that only God knows... ;)
in my life Lord, be glorified, be glorified... in my life Lord, be glorified today
in all aspects of my life, I want God to be glorified... including my so-called 'love life'. i can't stop praying and thinking on how i would glorify God in the decisions and actions that I make.
Lord, if this feeling is not from you... if this feeling is not pleasing to you sight... please take it away
I already gave up the 'butterflies' to God some time in the past... and I told Him that it would be fine for me to be single all my life, if that's what He wants me to be. Im very much contented with "me and my God". I so much enjoy our fellowship with one another.
And now... I cant believe that the butterflies are coming back again. I find myself praying in tears. I dont wanna give my heart again to someone without His approval. I've made mastakes in the past... I had sins that He forgave. I don't wanna fall short again... I've learned so much from those experiences that I've had.
"I know that butterflies are from you Lord, and you mean us to be happy... but i pray Lord, that while it makes our heart flutter at times, we would stilll stay focus on you until the right time comes... "
I know that God wants me to enjoy and feel the butterflies at the right time. But whatever happens, God will always be my first love... i dont know, maybe someday, He would place someone next to Him in my love list. =)
someday, i know... i'll have my own love story to share... a testimony for the glory of my first love. =)
Lord, help me please. i can feel the butterflies again... i can feel them coming back. help me to manage things out and act normal eventhough the butterflies are moving around me. Help me not to be distracted... help me to focus on You... just on You. I believe in your perfert will and time. I love you so much Lord... and i won't love anybody else as much as i love you. in christ name, amen
some say that "time heals all wounds"... but if you would ask me, i dont think so. in my opinion, time only cover the pains and wipe the tears. coz when the struggle arises, you'll find yourself recalling and counting all the heartaches and pains you've had since the day you were born. You'll end up blaming everybody, getting angry with those people you think who've hurted you, and feeling pity for yourself.
i used to think that way in the past. i got so much pain in my heart when i was a bit younger. but then, i realized that it's not time that heals the wound... but it's Jesus. =) i used to say that I've forgiven those who've hurted me, but i had the wrong definition of what true forgiveness really means. bit by bit, I learned how I should forgive, as He has shown me how He had forgiven me. I gave up to Him everything in my past... and He has blessed me with joy in my heart.
just this morning, i was smiling as I pray for those people who made my life a tele-novela type... those people that I used to hate much. =) As i look back, I see my life there like a dream... a very colorful and adventurous dream! =)
you wanna know the real story behind me and be blessed? just ask me personally! hehe =)
for the past 6 months of hard work, tears and laughter here in ibm, phil, i suddenly felt that im not needed here anymore...
i've been working here full time since may of this year (from monday to friday). I've exerted twice the effort and time that is required. Im having uncompensated over time, at least 3 times a week. Im giving my best in all the tasks assigned to me without asking for reward or anything.
i have nothing against the treatment of my officemates. as a matter of fact, they've treated me best, among the other trainees. I got several priviledges here at ibm, that no other trainee has experienced. Im like a regular employee to them and we share personal stuffs as well. I got a "tatay", a "mama" and a "manay" here.
But the past couple of days, i feel like ineffective.... useless. I only got a hand-full of work load after camp... and i find myself not doing my thing either. We have several deadlines for the IBM AP audit next month... yet it bothers me not! I really don't know what's happening to me.
Aside from that, a new trainee will be here next week, to do half of what I'm supposed to do. She's also assigned to IBM internals with me. to be honest, I felt a bit jealous... (yeah.. i know i shouldn't!) but, when my officemates are talking about it, they're saying that they're excited for this new trainee. That she will be a special trainee like me. hehe! im so selfish! but that doesn't bother me much actually. I've thought about it a hundred times... and i know that it doesn't matter to me now.
you know what im thinking lately? i think i dont wanna extend my internship anymore. But, if they still need me for the preparation for the IBM AP audit, it's fine with me to stay for a lil longer. I dunno what's happeing to me now... i used to love my work much... i used to be so excited to learn and work on new projects... but now... i dunno.
i receive much... yet i give less... guess, im not needed here at ibm anymore =(
just this morning, i was recalling all my fave food... hmm...
| sisig from gerry's grill and dencios |
| sinigang na boneless bangus belly from something fishy |
| ferrero rocher |
| chicken joy from jollibee |
| pizza burger deluxe and garden fresh from greenwich |
| chicken with bottomless gravy from KFC |
| grilled prawn pasta from country waffles |
| rumba frap from starbucks |
| mango cream pie from red ribbon |
| palabok from red ribbon |
| dinuguan from goldilocks |
| king congee from chowking |
| anything cooked by my mom |
| baked tahong from krocodile grill |
| special cielo kabab with lotsa garlic sauce from mr kabab |
| mc flurry oreo from mcdo |
| bk big fish from burger king |
| onion rings with mayo and ketchup from burger king |
| mojos from shakeys |
| green mango with bagoong |
| siomai |
| dried mango from cebu |
| banana caramel pie with vanilla sundae from jollibee |
| cheese |
| macaroni and cheese from kenny rogers |
| pringles sour cream and cheese |
| lasagna and bake mac |
| double stuff oreo cookie and milk |
| cococrunch with banana and milk |
| spag |
| steak |
| daing na bangus |
| tilapia with soysauce and kalamansi |
| itlog na maalat with tomato |
| tuyo with vinegar |
| white chocolate |
| yakisoba |
| buko pie from laguna |
| baked ziti with white sauce from sbarro |
| pastillas |
| ube halaya from baguio |
| siopao from lemery batangas c/o SG2 | hehe!
| fettucini alfredo with pizza from fazolis |
| chocolate moose from red ribbon |
| french fries from wendy's and mcdo |
| fillet 'o fish from mcdo |
| mc chicken nuggets from mcdo |
| hush browns |
| mash potato |
| grilled fish from sari-sari |
| calamares from bargo |
| squid ika fry and beef misono from tokyo tokyo |
| sinigang na hipon |
| bar-b-que from grill queen |
| quail eggs from recto |
| fruit shakes |
| mais con yelo |
| piattos cheese and sour cream |
| ripe mango |
| v-cut |
| corn and carrots |
| buttered vegetables |
| garlic bread from fazolis |
| crumpy hazelnut and chocolate twist |
| chicharon with vinegar |
| prawns and crabs |
| white spag by my sis |
aryt! im supposed to go to the office, but i didnt! haha! i really got a busy day, so i decided to take a day off from my busy world in eastwood.
not goodbye, but goodnight first thing in the morning, my brother, sisters and i, went to visit the grave of my mom in eternal garden. I really miss my mom! she died when i was ten. She's one of my favorite companion, playmate, friend, guardian and cook. I'm proud to say that I GOT THE BEST MOM IN THE WHOLE WORLD! I do miss her much... though, it makes me happy to realize that she's already with our heavenly father. Engraved in the marmol with her name,saying "not goodbye, but goodnight". Someday, I know that we will see each other again up there in heaven. She's just sleeping for now... and one day, when we both wake up, i'll surely hug her tight. i love you mom! =)
bonding with riz before i went home, i went to rhiza's house. She was still asleep when i came. We just talked like what we usually do on a lazy day... and ate our fave double stuff oreo cookie with milk! haha!
--- went home to sleep and eat ---
feeling sporty im not really the sporty type of girl. You can ask me to sing, dance and act for several hours... but not to play sports for 45 minutes! My family and I, went to play badminton in a nearby court. I had shoulder pains after an hour of playing, that i cant move my both arms and shoulders. According to my brother, who's an orthopedic surgeon, i got this one-in-a-million scapula abnormality! haha! But i really enjoyed playing with them. If not only for my shoulder pains, i'll still play for the next hour. =)
the power of prayer we had a prayer night at church from 7pm until 12 midnight. Prayer is something that i really wanna develop in me... and i enjoyed that time of coming together as one church to pray to God! Isn't it nice?! I hope that I will be a prayer warrior for God! =)
the girl.
