jenny. nyeneks. jen. twenty-one.
currently a bum, but not for long. youngest of five. singer. loves to eat. sentimental. luvs music. butterflies. christian.
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what about?
this
site is where she rants and blogs about her oh-so-colorful
life, sprinkled with the simple joys God has blessed her with.
Psalm 48 A song. A psalm of the Sons of Korah. 1 Great is the LORD ,
and most worthy of praise,
in the city of our God,
his holy mountain.
2 It is beautiful in its loftiness,
the joy of the whole earth.
Like the utmost heights of Zaphon is Mount Zion,
the city of the Great King.
3God is in her citadels;
he has shown himself to be her fortress.
4 When the kings joined forces,
when they advanced together,
5 they saw her and were astounded;
they fled in terror.
6 Trembling seized them there,
pain like that of a woman in labor.
7 You destroyed them like ships of Tarshish shattered by an east wind.
8 As we have heard,
so have we seen in the city of the LORD Almighty,
in the city of our God: God makes her secure forever. Selah
9 Within your temple, O God,
we meditate on your unfailing love. 10 Like your name, O God,
your praise reaches to the ends of the earth;
your right hand is filled with righteousness.
11 Mount Zion rejoices,
the villages of Judah are glad because of your judgments.
12 Walk about Zion,
go around her, count her towers, 13consider well her ramparts,
view her citadels,
that you may tell of them to the next generation. 14 For this God is our God for ever and ever;
he will be our guide even to the end.
---------------- beautiful word... as if im "her" in the passage. Its amazing how the word spoke to me perfectly... just what i needed to hear.. just the comfort that i long for. Thank you Lord! =)
this is how crazy feminine ladies like me play the game! haha. and amazingly, our team won that game! whee! i never thought that i could be a good basketball player! hahaha!
sorry Lord... here i go again... doing something that You wouldn't do, and thinking of something You wouldn't think about if You're in my shoes. sorry...*sigh*
yes or no?
now or later?
right or wrong?
here or there?
bothered.
what now?
whats next?
what does it mean?
i dunno.
maybe you know.
confused.
is it the one?
is it the best?
is it worth it?
or am i worth it?
am i enough?
*sigh*
can i keep it?
can i protect it?
can i handle?
can i stand it?
can i?
wish i could.
pray i could.
what's the cost?
what's the effect?
what's the consequence?
good?
bad?
my choice?
my option?
or go with the flow?
hold on?
or let it be?
dream?
until when?
you wait?
i wait?
patience?
trust?
faith?
hope and believe?
who am i?
who are you?
is it meant to be?
first of all.. tay egay, my generous and makulit na tatay from IBM, if you're reading this again.. STOP! haha. you're not suppose to read this! hehehe.
this goes to everyone else.. but tay egay. haha.
off to puerto galera yeah, i'll be leaving for puerto galera tomorrow morning. =) it'll be my first time to be there. whee!! i'll be joining the trekkers from ivcf US, along with the other staffworkers from ivcf phil. =) i know that im gonna miss a lot of things here in manila for 4 days.. like the LRT fellowship of ivcf and sacrificial giving at church. *sigh* but i guess, i really need a break from my confused world.
final interview?! NAH! im supposed to have an interview this afternoon at global exchange. i waited there for an hour.. only to learn that, the interviewer is not available.. and they need to reschedule my interview. so.. i realized that it's not my final interview yet. grrr.. im becoming impatient again.. i really dont understand this job hunting journey anymore. =(
3 SOULS SAVED LAST NIGHT! the heavens are rejoicing with our fellowship.. because, 3 souls accepted Christ during our BS last night! yey! i was filled with gladness and unspeakable joy. praise God! =) and another thing, 12 students came to our BS too. its the biggest number of attendees we had! its really something BIG for a pioneering chapter.. whee! though, i should say, that i had a HARD time getting their attention.. and stopping them from talking once in a while. i might divide the group into smaller groups soon. =) another sacrifice on my part.. coz i'll be the one to handle the all groups.. coz no one else would.. *sigh* but i think that its worth it.. knowing that my students are spiritually growing.. i guess it's ok. =) i believe that God will enable me. =)
my heart, my hope, my strength and my will..
my plans, my past, my future and stil..
all i possess, and all of my best..
this one life i have.. i live for you
let me sleep
for when i sleep i dream that you are here
you're mine
and all my fear is left behind
i float
on air
the nightengale sings gentle lullabies
so let me close my eyes...
and sleep, a chance to dream
so i can see the face i long to touch
to kiss
but only dreams can bring me this
so let the moon shine
softly on the boy I long to see
and maybe when he dreams
he'll dream of me.
i hide beneath the clouds
and whisper to the evening stars
they tell me love is just a dream away...dream away...
a dream away.
so let the moon shine
softly on the boy I long to see
and maybe when he dreams...
he'll dream of me.
i feel that im at the end of the rope now. hopeless bum. terrible. im trying my best to "hussle while i wait".. and i believe that im doing well. im keeping myself busy with campus work and reading books... yet, i cant stand being 'broke' any longer. its so hard to fulfill my obligations, and be as generous as i wanted to be, if i, myself, dont have the enough resources that i need. i cant stand to ask for allowance anymore.. coz i know that they are limited too... that we're all affected by this national economic crisis.
i wasnt able to pay my bill yesterday.. and i dont know what would it result. i dont know if i can make it to the student leaders retreat tomorrow.. coz im literally 'broke'. *sigh*
it feels like, God's answer is "late" already.. though i know that its not. i dont know how to survive in the next days to come...
yesterday, when my uncle was playing "great is thy faithfulness" in the piano.. i cant help but cry. i know God is faithful, i know that He's sufficient... that's all i know.. that's all i can hold on to now... the promise that i believe is forever true.. though i cant see it now... i cant.
the girl.
