be heavenly.
being the frustrated book work in me, i easily loose interest in reading. In high school and in college, i hated book reports.. and so, i either let my brother read the book and summarize it for me, or i look for summarized materials already.
I started reading a dozen of books.. but i only finished a few. In my mind, i wanted to read a lot of books so that i could learn much. But after going through a number of pages, i'll get bored and feel sleepy. The flood of alphanumeric characters make me wanna jump out of it as soon as i can.
Normally, i'll just finish 1 chapter in one sitting. So, the more chapters a book has.. the longer it would take me to read it from cover to cover.
I've always been intrigued by brother yun's
"the heavenly man". I've heard a lot of christian fellows recommended it as an excellent reading.. and i've seen a lot of copies of this particular book in different stores. Out of my curiosity, while i got a lot of pending readings with bookmarks on their middle chapters.. there i was again, attempting to start another one.
I borrowed the book from one of my students, and started reading it the other night. Man, i cant get my eyes off it! Tears fell as i turn each page. I stayed up very late until my eyes hurt. The next day, all i did was read.
I am deeply touched.
Miraculously, i finished reading all the 350pages of the book in 2 days!!! whoo! It feels so impossible.. and i wanted to read more... more inspiring and reviving stories like of brother Yun's.
I am amazed on his great love and faith in God. He experienced great torture and persecution (physical, mental, emotional).. that led him very close to death several times.. Yet, his faith was not shaken. His description of torment shivers through my spine. And he got all through these because of his faithfulness to God, and God's great love and mercy upon him.
I felt this holy jealousy of brother Yun and God's deep friendship. But then, i feel so incapable and very weak to be in brother Yun's (or his wife Deling's) place. Im so inspired of their heart to reach out in all of China, which they closely did in 30 years. And not only that, God is now using them outside china to spread the Word to Islam, Buddist, and Hindu neighboring countries, and send revival among the sleeping western churches. God is using them so mightily as He moved them from glory to glory.
I am greatly challenged by brother Yun's and the life of our brothers and sisters in China. It is a wake up call for me.. to preach the gospel.. to reach out for more unsaved souls.. and to not waste every single day of God's salvation. I know my call, yet im moving really slow.. the harvest field is plenty and lying just right in front of me. I need not waste each day of salvation. We're here on earth not to enjoy its comfort, but to suffer with Christ.. and find great joy and peace in it. It is an honor and privilege to suffer for Christ’s sake.
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to my friends who are reading my blog and haven't personally met the Lord Jesus Christ yet.. i want you to know that Christ died for my sins, and your sins as well. I used to be a sinner too.. but God forgave me, cleansed me, loved me, made me a new creation.. and gave me life for eternity. He loves you so much that He wants to spend eternity with you too. He's now knocking at the doors of your heart, waiting for you. Will you let Him in? The choice is now yours to make.
All you have to do is pray with an open heart. Ask God to forgive you for all the sins you've done, and ask Him to come into your heart, and be the personal Lord and Savior of your life from this day on.
Its so easy.. for God's salvation is free. He paid all our sins on the cross already. But dont expect fireworks or instant transformation.. yet expect a gradual change in your life.. as the holy spirit dwells in you. I cant guarantee you a life of fun and comfort, but i can assure you the joy and peace from the heart as you continually seek the real God.
Believe me for this is true. Jesus is the true living God.. He has proven His greatness and love in me already. =)
Hope we could spend eternity together.
the girl.
